Hello friend across space and time,
Sorry for the delay. I do not speak (or write) French, so sadly I cannot help you there.
But I can resonate with your struggle, having felt similar pains over the last two years of my marriage.
If I were to share a bit of advice that was shared with me then, it would be this:
We are so much bigger than one sweet love. The world is out there, and we owe it our happiness. So if your life is not enriching your soul, whether through sorrow or joy, then it’s your responsibility to either change your environment and relationships, or change your perspective.
You are deserving of love, admiration, and deep, connected sex. Everyone is.
Godspeed to you on your journey.